Life mirrors my every thought. As I keep my thoughts positive, life brings only good experiences to me.

May 1, 2008

Life mirrors my every thought. As I keep my thoughts positive, life brings only good experiences to me.

May Day! Boy we're missing out in America, they have all kinds of fun celebrations around the world and unfortunately in So. CA it marks the anniversary of last years May Day protest where a whole lot of Angelenos chose to protest and cause trouble and it became a negative thing. Several high schooler's chose to leave school and protest which I think should be illegal, they need to keep their butt in school. Protest AFTER school, and do it peacefully. It also has to do with immigrant rights and without getting on a soap box I'll just say that if you are an immigrant and do it legally ~welcome to the USA! If you do it illegally... you cost me more money because of the services here that you take advantage of and I don't like footing your bill. And if you do come to America, the language here is English and do not expect me to accomodate you. When I move to Mexico or Spain or Guatemala or China, I'll learn to speak your native language.

I cannot believe we're already into May, the time just flies.

I found a new meeting and it's in my home town. How sad that i've missed out on this meeting because the Leader is super cool and I liked her a lot. She was welcoming and interactive and I just felt so good when I left that meeting last night. I've already purchased my monthly pass so I will continue this meeting for at least May. My attitude today is more positive and more confident. That is what meetings do for me. I had mentioned that on a WW board and that I realized I cannot do this thing without meetings, I need it. Someone told me that she's at goal and still needs meetings and has just accepted that this is part of her life. So I'm thinking on that today. It would be a great gift to myself to continue, get healthy, and take care of myself with love and understanding.

I laugh at myself and at life, and nothing can touch me.

April 17, 2008

I laugh at myself and at life, and nothing can touch me.

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It's on my mind also because I have a cousin who's having major surgery today and they are not sure but she may be facing some cancer treatment herself. Let's hope it doesn't come to that.

I had my weigh in yesterday and I'm down exactly 19 lbs!! I lost another 1.2 lbs for the week. I didn't make my 20# goal but I'm still happy with my loss. My work meetings may not continue next week but I'll find another meeting if that is so, I need the meetings, it helps me. And I'm so determined right now. I will not let this fork in the road deter me.

I had an interesting conversation yesterday that made me think. It's one of the WW girls I go to the meetings with and she commented that I'm looking great and that she can really see the difference. I was pleased. And then she said..."You are too pretty to be overweight". It just stopped me in mid-thought. I was silent for a second. Then I thanked her, because I know she meant it as a compliment, but it really made me think. I told her that I'm feeling determined and positive and that I know I can do this. It made me think of the offhand comment I've heard a lot of people say about others. The comment, She has such a pretty face.

So does that mean that you are pretty but only really pretty if you don't have the extra weight? That the weight takes away from your prettiness? And you are only pretty in the face, but not overall? Oh, I could just go on and on about this. I hate being perceived as not pretty enough, or kind of pretty, but if I'd lose the weight I'd be really pretty. I guess when it comes down to it, it doesn't matter what others think, what's important is how you think of yourself. But I also know that the weight does play mind games and make you question your own worth.

I always have wanted to find someone who sees through my shell, my outer appearance and sees the real me and loves me for me. Truth is, I'm basically the same person inside who deserves to be loved, at my thin weight or my not so thin weight, and I want someone to care for me, all of me, because of me. And my guy, he does do that. He's always made me feel like the most gorgeous girl, all of me. Inside and out.

I guess my point is that I don't want to have that attitude in my head, that I'd be prettier if I were thinner. I want to be accepting of me and the truth is, accepting of others, based on who they are and not what size pants they wear.

Compliments are gifts of prosperity. I accept them graciously.

April 10, 2008

Compliments are gifts of prosperity. I accept them graciously.

Weightloss
An update on my weightloss journey. I've been doing Weight Watchers since September of last year. I'm fortunate to have a meeting in my building. It makes it very convenient for me to get to a meeting. I take my lunch and have it thru our meeting. And we are very fortunate to have a really great Leader. His name is Daryl. And I just love him. He's really motivating and I always feel great after his meeting. So I've had my ups and downs as far as being on program, it's difficult to change your habits and this is a lifestyle change. It's not just so simple as not eating that, or depriving yourself and I like WW because it teaches just that. It's not a diet, it's a lifestyle and like other things, it's hard to change your ways. It's possible, absolutely, but not always easy.

So after being so sick I knew I had lost. And I did. But I feel motivated again and I know that I'm on the right path. To date I have lost 17.8 pounds. I'm proud. I'll admit it. I could look back and say, that's all?! But I won't do that, because I feel I've accomplished a lot. And the truth is, I could have GAINED that much if I hadn't changed my lifestyle last September. And I'm very happy that I got thru a holiday season without gaining anything! That is a real accomplishment.

And I'm enjoying the feeling of my clothes fitting different, or being able to wear some clothes I wasn't able to before. Those are the fun effects of weightloss. There's also a mental lightness. I just feel lighter, I feel I have a little more spring in my step, more energy, more drive, more determination.

Wordless Wednesday~ Well I thought it was suppose to be just that...wordless. But it seems others are not wordless and I had quite a few questions regarding the rose picture posted yesterday. So I'll explain. That rose pic was taken from our front yard. It was dusk, the light was still out, but setting and the pic leads you to believe it was taken at night, but it was not. I asked Mamacita about the rose, because it is hers. She has a passion for roses. That rose is called The Peace rose. She got it at Jackson and Perkins but I'm not sure it's exclusively from there. It has a wonderful history. This is what Jackson and Perkins tells of the history:

The radiant, sweetly perfumed flower with a fascinating history: this rose was named the day Berlin fell to the Allies. The day peace was signed with Japan, it won AARS honors and members of the newly formed United Nations were presented with its blooms. Shipped bareroot.

Someone asked me to take a pic of it when it was in bloom and so I did, last night. The change in the bloom was quite dramatic I thought for one day. I will have to post those pics tonight. Sorry.

And thank you to all who appeased me and posted a comment, I really do appreciate it and I love to go check out your blog and to "meet" all of you. Please don't stop commenting...I will follow...even if you just say, hi! that's good for me!

I feed my body nourishing foods and beverages, and I exercise in ways that are fun.

March 13, 2008

I feed my body nourishing foods and beverages, and I exercise in ways that are fun.

I was happy at my weigh in yesterday. I lost .2 lbs. and I was happy with that because of it being my birthday week. I've been out to eat several times, have had leftovers from eating out and I had a few cupcakes....just a few. Ok, maybe more than a few! We had a great meeting. We talked about detours, bumps in the road and how we deal with them. I feel once more, motivated. That's the value of meetings to me. I did some knitting in the meeting, and it's interesting how people react to KIPing (Knitting in Public). People are usually intrigued, some of them commented on how tiny the knit was, I'm working on a pair of Firestarter socks. It was great for me to knit and also it helped me concentrate on the meeting.

I'm reading A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. It's one of those books that is difficult for me to really get in to. It's sort of how I feel about philosophy, I understand it, but it takes some effort to really grasp. But I read something in there that really hit me and I keep thinking about. He was talking about the ego and how we need to get out of our head and he was talking about eating disorders. Now, I've never been bulimic or anorexic, although some wondered in my younger very skinny days. But I relate to some eating disorders and can now admit that I am an emotional eater. It's been my comforter, my soother and it causes me some trouble. So I'm really trying to understand it and not let it be such a problem for me. So what he was saying regarding someone who was bulimic i think is that, Their mind is hungry, not their body. Yes! That makes sense to me. So I'm being very conscious of what I'm doing these days. Am I really hungry? Or is it something else that I'm seeking? And when I need to I tell myself, My mind is hungry, not my body.

It looks like we'll get some more rain this weekend. It's cloudy and overcast today and it'll rain over the weekend, time to make soup! And I'll finish those Firestarters. Pics to follow.

Oh, the pic below is a tulip. I didn't take the pic, but think it's beautiful.

Everything I need comes to me in the perfect moment.

March 6, 2008

Everything I need comes to me in the perfect moment.

Yesterday I was feeling kind of awful but I made it to work and I had my Weight Watcher meeting at noon. Of which I was not looking forward to. Sourpuss Schleprock I was. I didn't want to weigh in because I just knew based on my week and my attitude that I'd be up. And I didn't want to face it. But I had a heart to heart with myself and I told myself that I needed to just face it and deal with it and I knew I needed a meeting because of my attitude. So I went to weigh in and guess what???.... I lost 3.8 pounds over 2 weeks! Well, um, I'll take that! I also received an award for being there for 16 weeks and received a cute key chain thingie. My Leader asked if I wanted to say anything and so I mentioned that I have been struggling but I realized that I have made some lasting changes in my attitude and eating. So I feel better now and after the meeting I have some motivation and am inspired to continue. So for this week I will be working on the basics.

My Good Health Guidelines to concentrate on this week:

• 5 servings of fruits and vegetables a day
• Choose whole-grain foods
• 2 serving of milk products a day
• Drink at least 6 8 oz. glasses of water
• Have 2 servings a day of healthy oil
• Get enough protein
• Limit sugar and alcohol
• Take a multivitamin

It takes some thinking and preparation but it's doable. I've been lacking the water and the fruits and veg.

And now I'm suffering from allergies. I don't get them every year and it's not that bad but yesterday when I went outside to get to work, my eyes started watering, itching, sneezing, stuffy. It's horrible! I'm afraid this is a bad year for me for allergies. Hopefully I'm only allergic to what is blooming now.

I allow my body, mind, and emotions to relax.

January 30, 2008

I allow my body, mind, and emotions to relax.

I started Weight Watchers again at work. We will have a 12 week class and it's so convenient for me to just go to another part of the building to weigh in and then at noon I take my lunch over there and we have the meeting. I adore our Leader Daryl...he's motivating and caring and funny. I missed him but I'm so happy to start again. Good news, I for sure, according to WW scales did not gain over the holidays. Bad news, our home scale sucks! There is such a huge difference between the two, I'm saving up now for a really decent home scale. We had a great meeting discussing ways to handle the big Super Bowl Sunday and all the parties and get togethers. I don't have to worry, I'm not going to someones party so I have more control at home with my family.

Fighting a headache today too. Not a migraine, it's different but it's still related to my monthly I think. I'm taking stuff during PMS at the advice of my Dr. but it's still bothering me. It's not bad enough to go home, my boss told me I can if I want, but I have an appointment tonight after work so I'm trying to hang in there.

My social life is looking up, not going to say anything yet but it's good stuff! Perhaps Valentine's day will actually be celebrated this year!

I forgive everything and everyone, including myself.

January 14, 2008

I forgive everything and everyone, including myself.

I really like today's affirmation. It's great to have it on a Monday too. Monday is a new beginning. Do you have things that come up in your brain, that you feel ashamed about, or still hurt you? I do and then I realize that it's over and done with and I don't have to let it affect me anymore. So today I forgive.

I was suppose to have a busy fun weekend, going to a trade show Saturday during the day and then a Ladies Night Out that evening, but everything was cancelled for various reasons so I ended up home doing a whole lot of nothing. Which is OK sometimes too. I had a nice nap Saturday afternoon and did some knitting and read until 2 a.m. Sunday we went to the mall, and had a bite to eat. Shopping wasn't so fun, because I'm not spending money right now. We went to Steve and Barry's, I wanted to see Sarah Jessica Parker's line Bitten. I saw it on Oprah and wanted to see the quality. I was a bit underwhelmed. They didn't have any of the suit jacket or pants and no coats, I wanted to see the black watch plaid jacket I saw on TV, but they had none. I'll try another store at another mall and go early so it isn't all picked over.

I ended up frogging my first attempt at the Firestarter socks, they called for a US2 and they were huge on me. Too long and too wide. So I redid them in a US1 and now I love them. I'm ready to turn the first heel. I really enjoy this pattern, can't wait to finish them and maybe knit the same pattern in a solid aqua Lorna's Laces yarn. I also have a neon green that I think would be lovely.

I started walking at lunch last week! It's not such a big deal, it's only been 15 or 20 minutes of walking but then it is a HUGE deal because the whole issue of exercising has been a challenge for me. It sometimes gives me anxiety, which isn't fun and I've had issues with it. Almost like a phobia. So I took a baby step and I succeeded. And I did not get anxiety. That's a huge plus. And I intend to go again today at lunch. It seems to work, I walk, come back and have my lunch and then I have energy in the afternoon and feel a sense of accomplishment. And another benefit is that I earn points on WW, even with 15 or 20 minutes of low intensity walking and that means I can eat more points, if I need to. A win win situation.

My find of the day: Jewelry made out of recycled knitting needles! Now, don't go buy all my stuff because I don't get paid until tomorrow.

Freebie!

December 1, 2007

Freebie!

I somehow bought a duplicate copy of Spin Off Magazine, Fall 2007 and so therefore I'm offering it to whomever first sends me an email with your snail mail or perhaps you know someone who spins and would like a copy. Just email me with their address and I'll be happy to send it. I don't care who it is I'm sending it to, I'd just like it to be wanted. Can you put the subject to "Freebie" so I know it's for that! Thanks!

I'm feeling under the weather today. I'm pretty sure I'm finally getting that cold that's been going around and that I've been talking about getting all summer. I don't think I'll be so lucky to fend it off this time. Unfortunately, it's starting out as an ear ache. I had some running around to do today, and then I got a little Christmas shopping done, but I didn't have the energy to continue.

Then it was home and we have the house being cleaned today, so of course you can't just sit and watch them (because that feels so rude) so I've been cleaning and sorting and now I really feel like crap.

I did go to the Chiropractor yesterday, to one I've never been to. In fact, it's been a couple years since I've been and alleluia, my insurance covers chiro! I'm going for my migraines. After that last one, I have to try this. I really liked Dr.W, we related well and he gave me a good adjustment. He worked mainly on my neck, in fact, I'm sore today from his working on me, it's to be expected I guess. I'm going again in 2 weeks and we'll see from there what I need to do.

I weighed in yesterday and I was down over the 2 weeks and over Thanksgiving but not by much. I was disappointed and know today that I really shouldn't be. So I'm moving on.

And just because he's so cute, here's a pic of our Tommy boy!

Lucky caffeinated me!

November 14, 2007

Lucky caffeinated me!

Looksee what I received yesterday! This is the fabulous package that I received from Janice for the Knitter's Coffeeswap 3! She is so thoughtful! It came at a good time too, I wasn't feeling great and had a hard day and it was a nice surprise to come home to. The package has a Caribou theme! My favorite coffee is from Caribou Coffee which I had while living in MN, but now that I'm in So. CA and in Starbucks land, I miss my Caribou. So she sent some Caribou blend whole beans and beans from her local coffee shop which is so cool. And this is a metal sign that says, Life is too Short for Bad Coffee! I totally agree!She also sent a Pampered Chef coffee scooper and clip to seal your bag, a Caribou mug which is way cool and I love the colors, Caribou bars which look yummy and she even figured out the Weight Watcher points for me, isn't that thoughtful! And on top of that is 2 skeins of this soft yummy yarn called Peppermint Mocha which is so scrumptious and I will have to start a pair of socks for me very soon! I love everything Janice, thank you so much.

I didn't go to work today, just wasn't feeling well. (Paul, look away now!!) Girl troubles, but TOM came this a.m. so I'm already better. And I have to report something I'm proud of. Yesterday I was having a not so good day and was trying to talk myself into going out for lunch. Cuz I wanted to EAT! I was craving fat something fierce and would have killed for a burger and fries. But I brought lunch, I knew it was because I was upset and because of PMS, but I was going to eat out anyway. So I fought myself for about an hour and then I just heated up my lunch and ate at work and I felt like I won one for me! I was able to stop myself from the emotional eating! Yeah me! It's a big deal to me.

We got our new laptop today and I was able to set up our wireless router and I'm in love! I'm sitting on the couch and watching Project Runway and I'm in geek heaven!

I am a very capable person, and people know this about me and love me for it.

November 12, 2007

I am a very capable person, and people know this about me and love me for it.

I'm having a bad Monday morning. You know, one of those where you really wonder if maybe you should go home and get back in bed and go to dreamland. I got in the car this a.m and had the gas light on and this time it wasn't my fault. My Mamacita took Gary home last night alone because I wasn't feeling great, and she looked at the gauge when she started the car, but it wasn't accurate because we live on a hill, she never looked at it again and drove over there and back on low gas, so then this a.m. I had to worry about getting up the hill to get gas, which I did successfully. Then I walked in my office and carrying my bag, the laptop, my handbag and a full coffee I guess is too much for me because I dumped my coffee all over my desk! My boss came in as I was cleaning up. K, I'm over it I think. Time to enjoy the day!!

I was down 2.2 lbs. last Friday at weigh in for Weight Watchers! For a grand total of 12.4!!! I'm just thrilled. I'm starting to feel small changes in my body and I got into a pair of jeans I hadn't worn for about a year. I love those changes. I feel so much better just about life with just those 12 lbs. gone. It's amazing, it's like the cloud is lifting, i'm not so much in the fog. And I see a light at the end of the tunnel. It's still a long tunnel, don't get me wrong, I have a ways to go, but there is a light I can see.

Now with the holidays coming up I will have to find ways to still live life and enjoy friends and family and celebrations. We are going to discuss this at our next meeting and I can't wait.

We went to a grand opening down near the beach Saturday. The spa that Mamacita and I like moved to a new shopping center and their Grand Opening was Saturday. We enjoyed a lot of free goodies, and had a nice lunch at California Pizza Kitchen, had coffee at Peet's and I got some skin stuff at the spa as well. A good day all around.

I am competent and well prepared to handle the tasks before me today. I keep my thoughts in order somy mind is at peace.

October 29, 2007

I am competent and well prepared to handle the tasks before me today. I keep my thoughts in order somy mind is at peace.

Ya, I'll have to keep reading this affirmation today because I feel jumbled and out of sorts. Our computer at home went down, I think it's the power source and I'm kind of lost. And wouldn't you know it is when I had 6 things sell on ebay and I wasn't able to process the order and ship. Stressed...

Had a good weekend though, Saturday we had 2 parties. One in the a.m for my best buds twins at Chuck E. Cheese. It was a lot of fun, they had a great time. Then we took Gary to his other home and Mamacita and I had another party that evening for our neighbors 80th birthday. They are family to us, and I haven't seen a lot of them in a long time so I really enjoyed seeing everyone. It was a very nice party, and I met some really nice, new people too.

My Friday weigh in I was down a total of 10.2 lbs!! And that included the weight from a monitor I had to wear Friday, so my loss was really more. I'm happy.

I was wearing a heart monitor for 24 hours and I've been going through some testing because I've been having some heart palpitations and my dr. wants to make sure everything is OK. This was the thing I didn't want to talk about earlier. Everything looks good so far, I've had EKG, and an echocardiogram and a treadmill stress test, and I'm waiting for the results although everything so far looks good. I want to get the OK to start exercising.

I'm really feeling good about WW and my eating healthy and I feel better. I'm not going to let anything deter me.

I am in harmony with all of the people, places, and things that surround me in this world. I am at peace.

October 22, 2007

I am in harmony with all of the people, places, and things that surround me in this world. I am at peace.

The LA and San Diego area are in real trouble with fires. It looks like many fires started yesterday and today it's just getting worse and with more fires starting. I last heard that a quarter million people are being evacuated from the San Diego area and there is 17 different fires going. I just heard of the first fire related fatality as well. The fires are surrounding LA from the north, Santa Clarita, Malibu, into the foothills, Arrowhead and now going down into Irvine area and San Diego. Scary, although I'm thankful that we are not directly affected by it. We live by a series of hills and I often worry about that, but we are OK for now. It has affected my work situation today too. I'm not able to start any new business or add coverage, we have a moratorium because of the fires so hopefully that can be lifted soon. I feel really bad for people who are losing their homes. My bosses have a home in the mountains too, but so far they are OK. I cannot imagine losing everything like that.

I never did get that cold. It's so annoying. I guess I'm getting allergies because I don't know how many times I thought, oh here it comes, and then it goes away. I'm thankful to not be all snotty and stuffed up.

I received some yarn in the mail and can't wait to get home tonight, because I may have some more yarn goodness! And again, I finished Hint 3 of the Secret of the Stole by Sunday! I really wish the hints were longer. I'm liking the pattern.

Made a great WW Turkey Chili last night, Mamacita and I put it together and it was really good. Only 3 pts. for a 1 cup serving. Full of onions, garlic and bell pepper, ground turkey and then spices of cumin, cayenne, oregano and we put some jalapeno powder in. Then crushed tomatoes, drained and rinsed black beans and a can of FF refried beans. Very tasty! It was in a WW book, if I find a link I'll post it.

Friday Weigh In!

October 19, 2007

Friday Weigh In!

I'm down 9.4 lbs. total and 2.8 for the week! Happy, happy, happy!! And that was with eating out twice, having birthday cake and getting my period. It's shown me that I'm able to live life and can still lose. Not that it doesn't take effort, it still does. But my body seems to be responding well to eating well.

Now if I can stop this cold. I have a scratchy throat and itchy ears...you know what that means. Maybe that cold that I evaded all summer is finally getting me.

Happy Friday and I hope you all have a great weekend! Do something fun! And then tell me about it, k?

Thursday Thirteen #32

October 18, 2007

Thursday Thirteen #32

Thirteen Weight Loss quotes that Mitchypoo is thinking about. I burned sixty calories. That should take care of a peanut I had in 1962.- Rita Rudner Self delusion is pulling in your stomach when you step on the scales. - Paul Sweeney Never eat more than you can lift. - Miss Piggy Enjoy life. Think of all the women who passed up dessert on the Titanic.- Unknown The belly is ungrateful--it always forgets we already gave it something. - Russian Proverb One should eat to live, not live to eat. - Moliere All of the things I realy like to do are either immoral, illegal or fattening.- Alexander Woollcott Eat not to dullness, drink not to elevation.- Benjamin Franklin Whatever will satisfy hunger is good food. - Chinese Proverb There is no love sincerer than the love of food. - George Bernard Shaw Preserving health by too severe a rule is a wearisome malady.- La Rochefoucauld In general, mankind, since the improvement of cookery, eat about twice as much as nature requires.- Benjamin Franklin We never repent of having eaten too little. - Thomas Jefferson

I make sure my food and beverages contribute to my vibrant health.

October 10, 2007

I make sure my food and beverages contribute to my vibrant health.

I like today's affirmation because I am very conscious of my food decisions and I am eating healthy and I'm so happy about it. I'm not saying I'm doing it all right, I still sometimes want what I want, but my diet has improved so much in the last months. And now being on Weight Watchers, well I'm so happy about it and having the benefit of losing the weight too.

You might be proud of me, I sure am, because I usually have candy on my desk for clients and my boss is a chocoholic, but I am not touching it! And with Halloween coming up, well our WW leader made a good point. I may want it, but truth is, there will still be candy left in the world, I don't have to have it now, when I want it, it'll still be available.

I'm working on the exercise too but having some health issues that I don't want to discuss right now. It's still important for me to try.

I just saw Jessica Seinfeld on the Oprah show and I'm so intrigued with her book, Deceptively Delicious. I must have it. Her focus was on getting her kids to eat their vegetables which I am sure is hard to do. But I was so impressed with the concept and idea of pureeing fruit and veggies and using it in your daily recipes. The concept is genious and I want the cookbook because the recipes look good and are mostly low fat, high fiber and healthy and that can only help in my struggle. I am trying to get it on ebay but not willing to pay more than amazon so i've lost an auction and it seems that it's back ordered anyway due to the Oprah effect. But it's on my wish list for sure! If you can see that Oprah show, watch it, it's great.

I'm jonesing for the next Secret of the Stole hint that isn't coming out until this Friday. Maybe I won't finish it over the weekend so that I don't have to wait so long til the next hint. I'm working on a prayer shawl for my Mamacita in the meantime at night and working on a pair of socks during lunch time.

No matter what I am doing, I ask for guidance. Show me the way.

October 5, 2007

No matter what I am doing, I ask for guidance. Show me the way.

I lost another 2 lbs. this week for a total of 6.6!!Yay me! So I'm past 5 lbs. and I have some yarn buying to do. Stash Enchancement!

I expect to have good health throughout my life.

October 4, 2007

I expect to have good health throughout my life.

I'm still on plan, doing very well with Weight Watchers. I weigh in tomorrow and I can't wait! I'm eating really well, not having cravings, and if I want a snack, I have them, but they are WW snacks and I add the points. I've really been taking care of myself. I find I'm ready for bed earlier and I'm getting a good nights sleep and up early. I'm getting in a routine and it's working for me.

I saw one of the girls in the restroom who is on the plan and we starting talking about how it's going for us and she said she struggles on the weekends. She is young and has a husband, maybe some kids, so I can see where it could be a struggle. And she said her husband won't eat her food. I tried to tell her about the website and that the recipes are simple and really good. Thinking to myself, he wouldn't have to know it was "her food". But inside I heard myself saying, "what a creep, geez, I mean how unsupportive can you be?"... So if I need to find another reason it's OK to not be in a relationship and share my life it's because he could be an unsupportive jerk and then I'd be really unhappy. And I'd have to hurt him.....just kidding. :) I'm grateful to have a Mamacita who is very supportive and she is also wanting to lose so it's great for us.

I've also got the Fast Food Monster at bay. You know, the one who bugs you all the time and says, "oh, you don't have any time, just stop quick and have some fish tacos and french fries. And you'll feel better....promise. " He's been kicked to the curb. I take a little time in the a.m. to pack my breakfast and lunch which is usually a salad, just field greens, and some feta cheese, and then a frozen entree. For now, that is working. I also take a fat free pudding or sugar free jello and some fruit. For breakfast i bring bran flakes and some ff milk. It's so simple.

I got my copy of Crazy Aunt Purl's Drunk, Divorced & Covered in Cat Hair. I had preordered it months ago and am a little peeved at Amazon because when it was in, I should have been one of the first for it to ship, but I had to cancel and reorder to get it to ship which doesn't seem right. But the book is really enjoyable. Well, if you read Crazy Aunt Purl, you can just imagine. It seems they've edited some of her southernness out of the book which I wish they had not done.

Mamacita and I have spa appointments Saturday morning and then we're going to lunch at the beach. I can not wait! I'm having a massage....guess this means I'll have to shave my legs!

It is okay to learn from every experience, and it is okay to make mistakes.

October 1, 2007

It is okay to learn from every experience, and it is okay to make mistakes.

October

The whole world is your family. Bring peace to your mind and to your world. Send loving thoughts to even those who you think of as enemies. Love and forgiveness heals.

Yes people, it's October. I've been saying all summer, I have to get in for a pedicure and now I'm like, oh, why bother. In the fall and winter I have socks and tights on most of the time, nobody cares about my toes. It's less than 90 days until Christmas too...OOOHHH, am I making you anxious? Sorry. It does make me anxious except that I have been knitting all year and frankly, I'm almost done with my gifts, I'm not too worried this year.

Had a rather challenging morning... My brother's wheelchair decided to take a dump last night. The gear box went crazy and his chair is capable of tilting up and down. Well it went out and tilted all the way down and so, he was falling out of it and there was no way to get him out of the house and into the van. So we had to put him down for bed early because it was uncomfortable for him to sit like that. We were in communication with his facility and there is a guy who knows about his chair but he doesn't have a phone and doesn't drive. So we waited until this a.m. and then we went and picked him up and he came and got the chair at least up enough to get him out of the house. So we got him out of bed and then Mamacita was taking he and my brother back to the facility.

I felt kind of hungry last night, cravings, but I still did well! I didn't eat before bed. I did have 2 glasses of wine, but I was on program, so there!

I have a pink baby kimono on the blocking wires and I'll sew it together tonight! Pics to follow....promise!

I'm a loser!

September 29, 2007

I'm a loser!

That's right! I'm a loser! I lost 4.4 lbs. last week and I'm really happy with my efforts and how I'm feeling. I know I'll hit hurdles, probably soon, but this is doable for me and I'm doing really well. I'm planning and learning and truly those 4.4 lbs. represent a weight lifted off of me mentally. I feel more energetic and optimistic about life. And I can still enjoy life and be on program which is really the point. It's not a diet, it's a lifestyle.

I enjoyed a nice dinner and a glass of wine and then went out with friends last night and had 2 cocktails and I was still on program! How about that! And we did have fun last night. I went out with 2 girlfriends and we laughed and listened to music and socialized and it was just what I needed.

Have cleaning and knitting and reading to do. I love the weekends! Hope you have a great one.

The gateways to wisdom and learning are always open, and I am choosing to walk through them.

September 28, 2007

The gateways to wisdom and learning are always open, and I am choosing to walk through them.

Today is my first weigh in, kind of anxious, or maybe more excited to see if my efforts this week are going to show. I have been totally on program and really feeling good about my efforts this week. I've tried 2 WW recipes, and they were both very good. I'm liking the program a lot.

I'm so happy it's Friday! I can't wait for the weekend. I've had a lot more energy lately so I'm hoping to get some things done over the weekend. I HAVE to get out my SP11 package and also a gift to someone.

I'm not sure I've mentioned it before but if you are on Ravelry, I started a group called cat knits and you are all welcome to come join us. We talk about our furbabies and our knitting/crocheting/crafts. We've also played a couple games of bingo which has been fun for me to put together. That's the other package I have to get mailed. I try to ship as soon as possible, but you know, life gets in the way.

I started a pink Baby Kimono for my boss who needs it for a gift, I'll get that done this weekend I'm sure, I started it last night and I'm about a third done. The pattern is in a garter stitch, but I switched this one to a stockinette and I may embroider some flowers on it. I'm using Knitpicks merino yarn and i love knitting with it. And speaking of Knitpicks, I want those new Harmony needles! Aren't they the coolest! I'm thinking of buying a set for my cousin who is a new knitter. They will be her Christmas present.

I received a book for my Secret Pal that I will include in her next gift but I'm coveting! Oh, this is a cool book and I want it, I want to keep it....but no, I'll be good and give it to the person it was intended for. Can't say which book just in case but I think I found a style of knitting I have to try.

I'll post my weightloss later! (See how confident I am!)